Bedroom Demos

by Futo

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Unmastered, loosely mixed demos made in my bedroom.

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released June 2, 2013

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Track Name: A Few Years
No I'm not an artist
But sure do try my best
I'm more of an animal beating on my chest
But no I can not roar
And no I can growl
No I can not sing
Or at least not that loud.

Maybe one day I'll be able to say what I want
When I want
But this isn't that day or even that month
But give me a few years and I'll be ready
Just give me a decade and I'll be ready
Just give me some more time and then you will find
That I'm ready to spread my mind around the world.

No I'm not a poet
No where even close
But give me some more time to see the beauty of the coast
I've barely seen this world where I've lived all these years
I've just been existing
And gathering my fears.

Maybe one day I'll be able to say what I want
When I want
But this isn't that day or even that month
But give me a few years and I'll be ready
Just give me a decade and I'll be ready
Just give me some more time and then you will find
That I'm ready to spread my mind around the world.

I'm ready to spread my mind around the world.
Track Name: Go Back to Hell
Do my demons have names
Will they cause my bed and walls to shake
Will my eyes turn dark
And my knees buckle under me
Will my body go stiff
And then shudder violently?

Will they appear as a serpent or some grotesque beast
Will the come dressed as fear or something chasing after me
Or will they come in slow and knock softly on my door
Using polite words while all the while poisoning my well?
Oh I don't care
Just please go back to hell.

Do my demons have a face
Something solid I can point to
Or are they just ideas
That only destroy my brain
Do they serve a purpose
Or is it all just a game
And if that's true
Well who's controlling who?

Will they appear as a serpent or some grotesque beast
Will the come dressed as fear or something chasing after me
Or will they come in slow and knock softly on my door
Using polite words while all the while poisoning my well?
Oh I don't care
Just please go back to hell.

Oh I don't care just please would you go back to hell
Oh I don't care just please would you go back to hell
Oh I don't care just please would you go back to hell
Oh I don't care just please would you go back to hell.
Track Name: Now Shit's Cool and I'm Alright
Oh I used to play it cool
Like "Who the fuck are you?"
All those kids from school didn't know me
But I'd smile and wave
And laugh for days
But then shit changed and I got lonely
And I thought I knew what I was
I thought I knew who I was
Man I put up such a front
Man I put up such a front

I'm weightless and pointless
I'm weightless and pointless
I'm weightless and pointless
I'm weightless and pointless

Then I got all depressed
And screamed and beat my chest
All into a microphone
Well I wore myself out
Burnt bridges and checked out
Until again I was alone
And I thought I knew what I was
I thought I knew who I was
Man I put up such a front
Man I put up such a front

I'm weightless and pointless
I'm weightless and pointless
I'm weightless and pointless
I'm weightless and pointless
I'm weightless, I'm pointless
I'm weightless, I'm pointless
I'm weightless, I'm pointless
I'm weightless, I'm pointless
Track Name: Please Don't
My friends are suicide notes
My friends are loaded guns and swinging ropes
I want my songs to be played at your funeral
I want my songs to be so much more
but please don't hurt yourself tonight.

My heart is scared
But I act like I don't care
And it's gonna be alright I think
No it's gonna be alright I know
But please don't hurt yourself tonight.

Our kids are lost
Keys without locks
And it's getting scarier I think
No it's getting scarier I know
But please don't hurt yourself tonight.

Please don't hurt yourself tonight
Please don't hurt yourself tonight
Please don't hurt yourself tonight
Please don't hurt yourself tonight
Track Name: This Winter
I woke up with your name on my lips
Four letters printed on my eyelids
And it was cold in my bed
And it was cold in my head
This winter's gonna be a tough one again
This winter's gonna be a tough one I bet

Well you say I've changed but I'm still the same
My family tree is still dying slowly
My fears are still reaching up to drown me
And I'm still in love with you
but I feel so stupid saying it out loud.

Now you wanna ship out to the west
Go get famous as an actress
Well I'll stay here and try to drown out your voice
With all my strangled words and white noise
This winter's gonna be a tough one again
This winter's gonna be a tough one I bet.

Well you say I've changed but I'm still the same
My family tree is still dying slowly
My fears are still reaching up to drown me
And I'm still in love with you
And I'm still in love with you
And I'm still in love with you
And I'm still in love with you
And I'm still in love with you
But I feel so stupid saying it out loud
So I'm just gonna keep it to myself

I feel so stupid saying it out loud
I feel so stupid saying it out loud
I feel so stupid saying it out loud
I feel so stupid saying it out loud.
Track Name: Kiev Metro
I would feel just as alone in the Kiev Metro
as this place only half an hour from home
everybody smiles cause they don't know me
everyone is kind until they go

I don't have a place outside
of myself
I don't have a place, but in a fog
there is anger in the threads of the whole
picture
it tears itself off of the shelf

I try to keep my vision in a softer field,
but bodies keep lining them all
we never know the killer, unless it was ourselves
maybe that's the best after all

cause I would feel just alone in the Kiev Metro
as a willow land layered in sun
all the voices blend, and I go to blackness
all of the things that I know

don't have a place outside
of myself
I don't have the reason to cry
but weeping is a weather over consciousness
and I can't get out outside
I can't get outside...

all
those
existences
don't have a voice in the storm
even if we carry on with thorns on our head
they'll tell us we've fucked it all up

and I don't have a home in this side of the mind
which loses itself in the passage of time
cause I would feel alone in the Kiev Metro
as this place half an hour from home

it doesn't matter who I see today
they're smile will keep my from sleeping
and I lose myself in the fabrics of the Rhine
and float off into the alone

leave me alone
leave
me
alone
amidst the fishes sprawled over airplanes and cars
I don't want to ever know
I don't
want to ever know.
Track Name: Muse
Oh my god
I thought I heard your name.
Oh my god
I thought I heard your name.

But it feels good to be lost with you
And it feels good to be in love with you.

Oh my god
I thought I heard your name.
Oh my god
I thought I heard your name.

Breathe in
Breathe Out
When I move you move
Breathe in
Breathe out
repeat yourself, yourself.

In my life
I've never been pure
So I'll give in
To all my innocent sins
For my god
Well I whispered your name
And my words, they fell
I was engulfed in flames.

But it feels good to burn
It's been my turn
There's so much to learn
My fingers with trace your skin.
Track Name: When I Pass
I exist in what is
I exist in what was
When I pass don’t mourn
I’m still being born
All at once I am, I was, I will, I do
Until I don’t
Then I will again

All life is is stop and go
So it goes
Stop and go, so it goes
Stop and go, so it goes
Until it stops
Until you stop
Until I stop.

I have lived through fire bombings
And the horrors of war
The giants walked outside
I stayed indoors
I carry the words of others
On my back like a soldier
Marching through the snow
My feet turn blue and ivory
Please go on without me
I wish to rest
I want to stop
Just for a while

I exist so I think
I am here
You are there
Intersecting lines
Sub plots
I am fine
You are fine
In time
Measuring your life
Measure out my strife so I can write
I can create
Forget some shit
For a while
Just for a while
It all comes back in time
It always does
It always will
It always does
It always will
Always will

I have lived through fire bombings
And the horrors of war
The giants walked outside
I stayed indoors
I carry the words of others
On my back like a soldier
Marching through the snow
My feet turn blue and ivory
Please go on without me
My feet turn blue and ivory
Please go on without me
Track Name: Get Well Soon
Seasons be kind
My bones bend and crack
And try not to look back on what I once was
Forget it all.
But it's getting hard
Nostalgia sets in
And I see in dreams all of the things that I tried to shut out.

Well I went numb for a couple months
And it felt like old times
Now I can feel but it's all too real
No I don't think I like it much.
I want to go back to summers passed
but my timing isn't right.
No this is winter, this is now.

Well my pen
Stopped moving for a while
And I thought I was fine but with some time/
It was a lie.
Get well soon
Soon it will be June
And all of those thoughts from when it was hot
Will come back to you.

Well I went numb for a couple months
And it felt like old times
Now I can feel but it's all too real
No I don't think I like it much.
I want to go back to summers passed
but my timing isn't right.
No this is winter, this is now.
That was then, this is now
This is winter, this is now.
That was then, this is now
This is winter, this is now.
Track Name: Move to Arizona
My feet are getting heavy
My vision's going dark
I've never been one for love songs
But it's all I think about now.
My fingers are boney
My hands reach out like tree tops
I've never been one for love songs
But it's all I think about now.
My dreams are drawn out
I'm too scared for my own good
I've never been one for love songs
But it's all I think about now.

I want to live in the Chelsea and write poetry
Or move to Arizona and die slowly
I want to grow old on a beach next to you
I just want to grow old with you.

My shoulders they slouch
My tongue is tied
I've never been one for love songs
But it's all I think about now.
My heart is so weak
So are my knees
I've never been one for love songs
But it's all I think about now.
My charm is gone
I'm too scared for my own good
I've never been one for love songs
But it's all I think about now

I want to live in the Chelsea and write poetry
Or move to Arizona and die slowly
I want to grow old on a beach next to you
I just want to grow old with you.
I just want to grow old with you.
I just want to grow old with you.
I just want to grow old with you.

I want to live in the Chelsea and write poetry
Or move to Arizona and die slowly
I want to grow old on a beach next to you
I just want to grow old with you.

I just want to grow old with you.